ouh so 09!

be a man, Mr Saiful

2009-12-19T12:50:00.002+08:00

u were not even a man enough and broke up thru sms?

the last thing in my my right now after spending a week before 2yrs with you is for you to prove to me ur a man,

BE A MAN AND FACE ME!?

dont have the guts to meet me and all, still can blame me for absolutely everything..
u made the decision shows how low and cheap of a person you are. well,

time will tell

god is great,

u will pay the price one day!

ps: cant wait for daddy and mommy to be back tmr!
ps:latest news, uNcLE jULian Last christmas this year :(

sacrifice for ur happiness..

2009-12-16T23:38:00.001+08:00

after 2 years,My two questions with all ur answers really made me realize that u really treat girls,ladies with no respect and that Cheap.

u ask me to sacrifice for ur happiness?

u ask me to let go of someone that i love?

u did it cause u love me at 'dat' time?

hmm...

i'll be mia from here for some rehab moments of my life cause the past 7 days god knows what happen.

ps: i need strength from Allah, amin.

how am i suppose to react?

2009-12-10T18:34:00.003+08:00

just cam back from hospital. was rush to the NUH Emergency just now at 1pm. ya Allah, i dont want this to ever happen again. i cried at home,i cried when i was at the hospital i was so scared...i wanted daddy i wanted mommy and i so thinking didii was outside waiting for me to come out.. i couldnt breath, my heartbeat was so fast and my chest hurts my head was even worse. i couldnt stand even for long. had xray test, the worst injection i ever felt even cried when the nurse jab me and was under the emergency ward. alhamdullilah i was sent home.

still i was so sad. the person i tot would be there for me for my first hospital experience wasnt there. the person i tot would msg me knowing i was sick didnt msg me..the person i tot was going to be so worried for me wasnt worried for me.

i know u had chalet, i didnt want u to come and meet me went i first went to the hospital clinic..all i wanted was ur concern.and all i got was msges of scolding me? u tot i lied and u wanted a break up? and suddenly u went all silent.

i guess if i didnt msg u at 5 just now u had no clue i was rush to the emergency. and u didnt even was worried..didnt even show concern to what happen..it was obvious that u were not afraid of losing me. all u had to say wah,everytime u had plans with ur friends mesti ade halangan? im sure u enjoyed ur chalet yesterday. but its not about the clinic trip. the emergency that happen at 1pm just now u were not even concern..

ive never for once love u less bit. even when u lied to me never was the word "break up" in my mind. and i was sick u tot i lied and u wanted it? why is it so easy for u to even say the word, why is it so easy for u to even think/consider it.. when u were at the hospital everytime u saw how i was worried for u knowing that one day i know u will be there.

i was close to death and u didnt even call.

do u?

2009-12-09T00:36:00.002+08:00

do u think of me all the time?

do u love me more than i do?

do u miss me everytime we dont meet?

do u feel sad when we dont meet?

do u feel excited when u see me?

excited when i msg u?

do u get worried or angry when i dont msg u always?

do u get worried or angry when i dont call u alwayS?

do u feel like i am more important than tired?

do u feel spending time with me is more important than money?

do u feel that this relationship is the one?

do u feel that making me happy everyday is a mission?

i have no doubt in answering all this questions and all the question is a yes answer for me without thinking twice..what about u? haiz i wonder why i have this feeling...

i know u dont read my blog, therefore i guess all this questions are all answered....

damdidam dam

2009-12-08T22:43:00.003+08:00

well yesterday early morning like 5am we are at the airport to send kakak off to Cambodia she has this convocation ceremony to attend there.. manage to talk to her online and all.. just a short trip she's like back tmr.. i actually took lots of pics at the airport now im just lazy to bluetooth the pic to the lappy hahaha..

today, Rufinah came over with her kids.. his boy is soo adorable.. Rufi is my cousin, Uncle Julian's daughter.. lots of laugh playing games and all.. fun fun fun.. had KFC and Pizza delivered hehe.. then after magrib i sent her back to her place.. now im waiting for Miss Nori to be online so i can ask whether she needs me to pick her up at the airport tmr..

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well im so inlove right now that im so afraid of losing..
haiz why do we always have that feeling that we love that person and we tend to feel that person doesnt give more love like how we give? is it selfish or asking too much?

am i just being self-centered? its good enough that he change.. i hope and trust that he does.
but will the future change the situation that i dont wanna believe it will..

sometimes i ask why do i feel so sad at times and confuse at one time and suddenly im so happy?

or am i just pretending to be happy to ignore the sadness inside?
or, am i just crazy?haiz, its true what Russell peter says, "Women always think" "Everything and anything"

i just wanna be adored,i just want u to look me in the eyes have sweet talks after finishing the story, i wanna be the center of attention from you, i wanna feel that u are worried of losing me, i wanna feel that u need me more than i need u, wanna feel u finding me msging me everyday,every minute,every second..i nak dibelai, dimaja..and all this coming cause u wanna do it not cause i ask u to do it....am i asking too much?

tears

2009-12-03T23:27:00.002+08:00

my parents are far from beyond..

i am bored cause No one make me laugh or smile every single day..

so who do look for ? of coarse its you

but when u urself bored and not in the mood to talk who do i look for?

no one!

is it wrong to cry?

am i selfish and think of my own needS? gosh!

last resort

2009-11-30T23:36:00.003+08:00

so freakin sleepy but im not sleeping just yet cause i wanna watch keeping up with the kardashians hehe season 4!

well for today drive from morning.. send kakak and the kids to her workplace and i went to cecil street..then from there i went down to wisma to get my bAby X1...walk a bit from the sony erricson shop to the carpark and went into FOREVER 21 and to my surprise there is absolutely NOTHING intresting... haiz went to isetan also nothing! boring so went back to kakak worplace fetch her there and went to city square.. we did window shopping cause she want to survey coat for the cambodia trip..and i went to GNC! fINally manage to buy the weight gainer thingy.. wah this is my last resort.. have been eating alot still no gain vegetables and fruits no gain...kfc,macdonald,late dinner,supper everything and yet no gain..so my last resort is this vanilla drink and i Hope what i hear will show good results on the weighing scale in 6months time!

then had lunch at banquet and once after made my way back home with the kids.. reach home receive call from dii who was at HTA cause he has R.T...He sounded tired and all so i fetched him from hta and send him back home and i came home again..for now, dii is already at work doing is night shift[BORING!]

Walid called so happy to hear his voice and his jokes.. cutest part after they left for A WEEK Walid ask if i did water his plants haha..i was literally laughing and i said, Walid if i didnt water the plants from last wk ur plants are all dead by now hahaha...

alhamdullilah and insya'allah they are going to Mecca..spore time around 7pm and they will be at 5pm..pray for the best for Walid and Bonda..miss them lots!!

my back HUrts!

2009-11-24T16:07:00.003+08:00

its been days since i last update.. haiz been exceptionally busy..thursday was at the airport almost half of the day, Walid and bonda had to send their bags.then after it went geylang jap.. on friday went for friday prayers then go teka market.. ouh yea about friday,

innitially dii said he could make it for friday prayers abit upsad but i was ok about it cause he was job hunting cukup time when i me and bonda finish prayers i saw dii with Walid and the kids, i was like so happy for the surprise, its like i just said my prayers for him and tada his their!! hehe.

then on sat bonda want to go geylang again to buy for Jaliah her bunga mangga cause bonda excidently broke it during the raya show. sunday was at abangs p[lace then went to uncle julian's place cause he was admitted to hospital again the other day so had to go there to visit him.. daddy was so glee to see him..Sweet part, dii took off to meet uncle..hehe

then yesterday was at the airport to send of Walid and bonda. alhamdullilah just now Walid called and said everything is fine there..haiz ive already missed them soo MUCH!! cant wait for the 20th. once after the airport me and dii went down to Wisma Atria to send my X1 for service hmm..upsad sei my warrenty cant be extended! damn! will getting back my phone on Friday.. but friday hari raya haji sei, see lah how maybe on saturday then go and take it back home.

hmm soon be Asar gtg!

ps: its the 24th! hehe

Mr Labu

2009-11-20T23:25:00.003+08:00

happy happy happy!!!finally Labu gets his make over done.. been eyeing this design from the Palace at melaka and now finally i brought back melaka to Labu heeheh....

credits to Tang.. i love the way he does it.. full with passion and sincerity.. very teliti and he really knows how to do his job and even gave a bit of discount.. nice fella! i would recommend to anyone who wants to do this sticker design go to him.. Bosz Creation!! more detail ask me!!

excited or scary?

2009-11-15T01:13:00.002+08:00

was looking for an excited picture on yahoo and this is what i got.. isnt it soo cute? hehe..

well ya i am excited right now.. for tmr i mean. got 2 shows a wedding, girl and guy side both have to perform then rush back and meeting Diidii!! haahhaha, excited to the mAximum.. this is what happens if u dont go out with ur guy that often hmm no spend time and all..so thats why i look forward to tmr.. gonna do something totally new something we have NEVER done in our relationship for the past 1year 1o months.. can not share!! but will get some inside scoop pictures and put it up here!

right now im sleepy actually but my cafe world not yet cooked haiz, have to wait for another 10min then its all ready to serve and i can sleep! dii is working night shift.. cant expect him to msg or call much cause night shift buzy gitu lor. then saturday night some mor!

urg! sleepy sleepy ouh yea, dii tmr u come back go and sleep and then when we meet no complains of wanting to sleep.. u already slept the WHOLE day today and tmr.. i should be the one complain going to wake up at 5.30am.. then no more sleep...

okays my foods done and ready to be served! gtg!will update on MONDAY or probably tuesday.. monday got plans for Labu!

this is it can?

2009-11-13T18:24:00.003+08:00

finally something new here! the background and everything is all new!

well im thinking of changing some stuff also.. i wanna try to start do more video blogging.. i saw isaac doing it on his facebook and it looks fun.. i mean atleast there is some memories of me here to be seen and heard if i were to leave this world one day right?

what do u think?

niway, i soo looking forward for the weekend.. saturday we going to Regina's nikah yeap she is getting married.. im so going to be in tears when i see her..cause i was already in it when she tunang last year. after which then going abang house then night ive got pract.. ouh yea, the sri warisan production cancel..long story..

on sunday i still have my 2 wedding show. so ive got to be at cc at 9 and probably it all ends at 4.. after which coming home freshen up and i will be going out with didii.. really looking forward for it.as u know from blog, we have been going thru lots this few months and i just hope we can renew our vows in this relationship which we did on saturday..just pray that everything is going to be back as normal.. (my heart is still pumping and restless about 9th dec,haiz)

well 2012 is out, i soooo wanna watch it.. hmm dii? tak kan u tk nak watch it?

a normal random day

2009-11-10T15:39:00.004+08:00

well alhamdullilah me and dii are back stronger as one.. insya'allah i always pray for the best of us..

niway im so bored right now.. dii just came back from JP he went with mama.. alhamdullilah mama got back from hospital..was freak out when i receive the news tau!dash to hospital..

haiz sometimes i feel relieve having a vehicle at home.. cause it enables us to rush here and there if there is any last min..like the other time Bryan got into accident we rush to hospital, when uncle got sick, when mama admit hospital..hmm alhamdullilah, Allah is always fair to people that obeys and thinks of him always.. Love you always..

well, im lovesick right now..miss lah, mane tak rindu lor! wearing dii Police shirt feels like im hugging him hahaha *censored* now a days im just stuck with the cafe world. tapi it looks so slow thats what i hate!

tonight dii working night shift...haiz hate when he work night shift no one to layan me at night hehe.. well one thing for sure i cant wait for the weekend!!

sunday having wedding show and after it, will be me and dii Show! hahahah me to know no one to find out! excITEd gitu lor!

well to ida, cant waiit to meet u i need to get that dress!

fikir fikir lah

2009-11-02T18:22:00.003+08:00

something that i read that is tickled my tummy..

*mula mula slalu msg skg bila tanya asal tak msg,

-where my freedom?

*mula mula no secrets between the both of us, skg dikata

-asal kepo nah?

*mula mula every 5min call skg bila tanya asal tak call,

-i pat umah per bukan nye buat ape ape

*mula mula tiap tiap minggu kluar skg,

-alah hari tu baru kuar

*mula mula hari hari ade jer benda nak berbual skg,

-hari ini i tak buat ape2 takde topic

mula mula smua nye berwarwa warni ape skg nie dunia dah gelap?

got this in the papers and it got me thinking betul ker setiap org melalui nye? well fikir fikir lah!

1st burn out weekend

2009-11-01T23:24:00.003+08:00

im soo tired.. seriously..

since yesterday actually.. after 3, me kakak and the kids we went to Abang's place..mommy and daddy couldnt make it as they were sooo busy with cc Kompang event.(not helping dont like the organiser haha) so went to abang place then to atok and by the time we want to go grandma's place the lightning was booming itself away at 6pm so i decided to drive back..furthermore i have practise at 8pm. before going home park my car at cc, kakak n i went to macdonald to grab some yummies leaving the kids with daddy.. after so took the car and drive home.. change up and all then after 720 left home pick dii up and went for training.. around 930 finish came home.

for today after subuh got ready for show but before that brought daddy mommy to grandma's place..tmr is All Souls Day..and since it falls on a weekday everyone will rush today.. lucky for us we got there at 720++ even the TP is not there for urshering duty.. but there was a bit of the crowd. then around 8 we got back... mandi and all by 9 left home and made mmy way to cc.. first we have a wedding show at Bedok Ave.. 2 dance item..once after show we got back cc and had to continue with our rehersal training for sri warisan production.. hmm using back Pinang Muda but the choreography 75% is all new sei...but its nice and FUN FUN FUN.. finish pract at 815 gitu.. penat u know.. dii was tired cause he was yawning and all..hmm..

niway next week sat sunday also burn... both days training.. and the next sat sunday also burn, sat 14nov is the production.. and 15nov is wedding show..hmm.. penat? i dont know..hahaha, but im excited of coarse its what i like to do right? so since i have this opportunity all out rite?

now i wanna sleep but i cant just yet cause my cafe world is not yet finish cook cook hehe...have to beat dii points!!

mood : tired!

flyers outing with didii

2009-10-29T17:55:00.005+08:00

capulet gathering

2009-10-29T17:51:00.001+08:00

thanks giving hari raya

2009-10-29T17:49:00.001+08:00

hari raya show 11 10 09

2009-10-29T17:46:00.003+08:00

1year 10months

2009-10-24T00:08:00.005+08:00

im suppose to be sleeping right now but i just cant and i need to blog about it..

alhamdullillah its after 12 and it marks me n dii 1year 10 months anniversary. and as a surprise gift, i ordered online flower delivery for him... best kan dpt boyfriend like me...wanted to give him the surprise today but he work morning shift so one day advance is still okay rite.. i was on my way driving to masjid sultan for friday prayers and my hp vibrated and i smiling all the way.. i was so worried that the gift didnt make it on time cause even today dii off, he stiill has his RT..hehe hehehe well after looking at the stuff i ordered online, its like worth it sei.. its nice and cute hehe.. a bouqet of cream roses and a goat bear.. hehe.. here's the pic they provide online and the one dii receive..

to dii, happy anniversary syg,

cant wait for our precious 2 years up ahead... i know we went thru lots of tears this year but im soo excited to walking along the lane for the rest of my life with u, insya'allah..

dii i hope u like the gift as much as how cute they are..hehe, i just pray we can re-live our moments where we are falling for each other and our honeymoon periods.haha..

love eu darling..

k now i really wanna go to lala land..hehe, will update more pics from todays thanks giving dinner..

a thousand fACes of life...

2009-10-20T23:59:00.000+08:00

relationship advice

2009-10-19T00:56:00.000+08:00

Like many of us, you probably ask yourself from time to time how to improve your relationship. The reason might be that you feel that your existing relationship is not as exciting as it used to be, or is less satisfying then before.

Well, whatever the reason for trying to improve your relationship might be, there are many ways that you can improve your relationship. Here is a short list of a few ideas that you might want to try out:

• Allocate proper time for communication with your partner. Preferably, try and have a regular, fixed time during which you talk things out, openly and freely. You should avoid at all costs keeping quiet about things, or refraining from talking them through.

• Always try to put yourself in your partner’s shoes. Try and imagine how they feel, how they look at things from their perspective. This will enable a more efficient conversation and will facilitate finding a mutually acceptable solution.

• Even if you are working around the clock, allocate a little quality time for you and your partner. A good idea might be having breakfast together, or sipping tea before going to bed. This will provide a good opportunity to regularly talk things out. This would also make sure that your partner will feel that you give him proper attention.

• Think before you speak. Even if you are angry, try and count until 5, and only then speak. You will be amazed to see how a more relaxed tone does the job of getting the message across.

24.12.07 - now

2009-10-18T01:49:00.000+08:00

2009-10-09T14:48:00.003+08:00

hmm wanna blog also in no mood!

just recovering from fever,flu sore throat all in one and right now i feeeel soo bored.. its not just today its been a few days already.. mane tak bored, the only place im at is at home...yesterday went to little india just for a short while mcm just to make urself tired and came home haiz..

dont get angry or blame me for being bored..what more can i do to enjoy? have been in bed... or reading my book.... or watching tv or blog? haiz.. but whats there to blog?

dii pun have been busy busy... he fail his ippt kesian sei skadar 6 seconds for 2.4 and now his 2nd shift and 2nd off is pack with RT (Remedial training) from 3.45 to 5pm... hmm 1st off definitely he is sleeping and resting the whole day then 2nd off pun kene burn.. haiz. haiz haiz. its been like almost 2months plus we actually go out and spend time as in quality time...

but for now the word BORED is stuck in my mind......HELP?

hari raya show

2009-10-05T20:44:00.008+08:00

monday raya

2009-10-05T19:56:00.011+08:00

jalan raya dii....melaka trip

2009-10-01T00:57:00.004+08:00

well there are soooo many pictures to update just that the loading system is slow so very malas!

k what i did on monday my first jalan raya outing...dii friends are all great people...police police pun true colours are just like normal people..ended everything like around 10..most were around my area,then to bukit batok and bukit panjang lets see around 8 houses...best!! pictures all to updated soon!

then on tuesday i made my first trip driving to malaysia..yeapyeap! me daddy and mommy we went to melaka..we park our car at Hotel Equatorial...very safety alhamdullilah...we left home at 630am and the trip from custom to melaka is around 2.5 hours...hehe, someone told me 4hours,it wasnt tiring driving long journey just that my butt aches when coming home time..hehehe...way back took also around 2 hours..best best best, we nearly wanted to stay one night therebut due to some circumstances couldnt..the friday mommy tot want to stay a nite there till sat but im having training for my show coming sunday..soo canot! but insya'allah in 2 weeks before mommy n daddy leaving we are going to make another trip there.......yahoo!!

welcome home..

2009-09-24T12:36:00.003+08:00

well these are some stuff that just join in our family... first of all on top of all, is my baju raya that dii bought for me.. i love just wearing it and pose infront of the mirror..alhamdullilah dii told me this monday we are going for our first jalan raya to his working friends house..all go jalan2... excited..!! the last time i went for jalan raya was 2years back, definitely im excited..

second on the list daddy bought new sofa.. a smaller much more softer and comfortable!

thirdly hehe daddy bought me a new bed sheet,matress and the bed set... and a table for the tv and all.. now my room is all new and spacious!and daddy transfer all the hi-fi set to my room, so who wanna watch movie that feels like in cinema? haha...

and lastly daddy bought for the hall and abang room a showcase i like it when its on in the dark...

in times of sadness daddy manage to make us smile with all this stuff..and of coarse the baju raya especially from didIi..

-love eu!

kakak birthday

2009-09-23T14:25:00.005+08:00

nothing much to pour out in detail for this, it was kakak 33 birthday..once after terawih at Masjid sultan we all made our way to the Airport... had dinner at Popeye and desert The Ice Cream cake at swensen!

busy musy!

2009-09-16T20:15:00.002+08:00

have not been updating much...have been sooo busy... no time to even check emails and such..

suprise about the fact that even the family is not celebrating raya but we still do buy stuff to make the house looks fresh.. like mommy say, its all for abang.. and im sure if he comes back on morning of raya he will be happy and feel welcome to see the house..

i did alot of throwing of stuff in my room. and now it looks so empty and when we talk there is echo hehehe... but daddy bought me a new bed and a sideboard all coming tmr! and he bought a new sofa a new glass board... wohoo..

we also put up the new curtains.. wah yesterday after terawih i brought mommy and daddy to geylang for a while and i really like the atmosphere... although its crowded u dont feel stuffy at all and its windy and u can drink hehehe... afternoon kan fasting ...

well i soo cant wait for tmr when all the furnish are coming in..

ouh yeah one more thing, my baju raya is totally ready!! wohoo, its nice i like, mane ke tidak $170 hehehe dii bought.. mane tak sayang... mommy and daddy was surprise that he bought for me but hehehehe, i will wear it when u come k dii... mesti jambu... hahah ok very shiok sendiri already... wohoo, excited u know, first time baju raya sepasang and expensive from boutique some more... definitely wearing it during the Raya event that im organising... FOR SURE!

love eu dii! muakz!

abang's 27th birthday

2009-09-02T13:41:00.011+08:00

Well what more can be said, its 2nd september.. its suppose to be abang's 27th birthday today.. as a present from me to him i self made a flower box for him, self arrange by me! well its much more worth doin it by urself then asking the shop to do it and paying almost $40 extra...

still no words can describe how much we feel for the lost of him.. he may be gone in the eyes of the family but he is never gone from our heart mind and soul. nothing else can ever descibe my love to u, endless and uncondition. now we all now he is in a safe place, we shall forever pray for u bro, my one and only brother. till we meet again, which i so cant wait!

still, we bought a cake to remember his birthday and the sweetest part of all, daddy bought for us all girls a similar ring. white and normal gold and he put it on us the night... its suppose to be a token of remembrance for us girls to him... love eu daddy... i could never imagine if ur not around...

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moms birthday

2009-09-02T12:37:00.001+08:00

it was moms birthday on 29th august (same as micheal jackson) had our terawih at a mosque at eunos then we made our way to Airport, it was a surprise thingy she had no idea.. mom tot we are going home and suddenly she was shock to see the tower.. made our way to the swensens.. did the cake booking, swensen special ice cream cake... great or what? but a bit upsad now the menu has shrink alot.. my favourite speg is no longer in the menu!! lucky the other day met shidah had that for dinner!! upsad, still had to buy something to eat right? overall it was a beautiful day!

my cover up weekend

2009-08-17T15:58:00.002+08:00

well yesterday we manage to go out even if it was later than expected cause of a wedding that i had to attend to..

we went to watch a movie title "The Proposal" also 10/10.. it soo funny i mean from the start till the end there is no part where u dont have to laugh about! its soo funny. worth watching seriously! i just love sandra bullock from miss congeniality! she really knows the meaning of comedy!

then once there we headed down to orchard to just walk around..its been a while since we headed down there and walk. ouh yea we went to ION the new shopping centre and the LV is worth dying for hehehe...

had a small dinner at KFC also a place we betrayed after knowing Popeye. but the chicken can never be better than Popeye, thats one thing for sure.

today dii is back to work, hmm when is the next outing, i will be counting.. especially fasting month is coming soon everyone will be soo busy but 15 september i will be at tanjong katong again with dii to get our outfits!! yeapy!

16 august

2009-08-17T15:05:00.005+08:00

well its a definite we went out on this weekend cause dii had his weekend off. we went down to Geylang which was soo crowded with traffic tp and all but we manage to get a parking lot! yepa yeap we went to the boutique to get our measurements done for our dress! before going to the boutique, we were like walking at tanjong katong up and down like for hours! picking the nice outfit then changing of colour this and that and finally we went to the boutique dii had an eye for last year and finally manage to get a nice one!well aint going to give any deeper clue's till the dress is out. once done we made our way to orchard to eat Sakura! i had a blast picking this and that and sedap giler! way better in some ways compare to Seol GARden. and im so sad didnt eat the chicken chop the clippers is full no where for me to put and if i were to put i have to wait for long! once there we made our way next to clarke quay! the best place to chill laugh and relax.

one thing for sure i realise this august is definitely our month of love! hehehe

ps: i love eu dii!

melaka 10-12 august

2009-08-17T14:01:00.008+08:00

what more to say? from the pics its kinda obvious i totally had tons of fun! what more from dii? sorry to say it brought tears when we went to the istana but i had to do covers cause i dont want to ruin the excitement. shopping was GREAT! and as promise dad bought me a Guess bag which i tot he is not going to buy. and after like spending almost 1/2hour to pick the best one this i what i bought and i totally love it! bought make up also. malaysia is having their sale so cant blame me for spending $500 and so .... but the most important thing was i had fun and so did Dii!

9th august

2009-08-17T13:42:00.006+08:00

well national day i had to pick mommy and daddy up at harbour front then once got back change and went straight to Yio Chu Kang GRC Club to celebrate Isabella 2nd birthday.. what i love most is definitely the Elmo cake, its soft and soooo delicious. they bought the cake at Cakes and Puffs. i already told daddy for my birthday i wanna have that cake for sure! ehehehe.. well we got there like around 4 and got back around 10.00... once home we had to rush to pack our stuff cause tmr is going to be my first trip with dii to MELAKA!

8th august

2009-08-17T12:48:00.002+08:00

well it was a day before National Day and obviously we couldnt go out on ND cause dii got to work, so instead we went out on the eve. and since GI Joe open we didnt miss any chance and straight watch it. I give it 10/10, i love the start of it till the end of it.. especially looking at the "step up" guy just makes u go haiz...hehehehe, but GI Joe is way better than Transformer. after watching the movie we had dinner at Muflis at Bukit batok..

summer studiofrost

2009-08-06T18:54:00.003+08:00

Well as the picture above yeap i bought a new dress from Studiofrost its the Summer dress hehehehe... dii have no clue about it but it will be reveal during the melaka trip that i cant wait! and the everlast pants daddy bought for me haha, he bought for himself one and bought the ladies version of it for me! and its really really comfortable when i wore it for practise the other day, nyum nyum.. dii came over just now before going for his night shift and daddy mommy leaving spore tmr they have their short vacation before continueing our short trip to melaka, best kan?

niway weekend move away i cant wait for monday!

random

2009-08-04T13:50:00.001+08:00

im happy right now, dii is busy with work and tired, family's great always noisy at home, hehehe life's never been better..not :)

Hougang National Day Show

2009-08-04T13:33:00.001+08:00

monday tidus

2009-08-03T12:04:00.003+08:00

have not been updating means not much have been happening hehe.. been going for shows for the past weekends well, national day coming right so yea.. lots of pics have not been updated hahaha...now just slaking at home, im soo having monday blues and dii is having monday tidus hehehe.. he just came back from night shift.he must rest well tmr ippt kan kan kan? hahaha..

well im sooo excited for next week trip to melaka i know ive been there like a dozen times last year, and all should be bored of it rite, but now dii is joining along.. its his frist trip so i will be his tour guide of coarse, and im soo excited for SHOPPING hehehehe.. suppose to be going mersing but that trip was cancel..but daddy said he buying a bag for me i hope its one of the wants that i want and eyeing for... but i will just keep quiet when we are there ... so excited..

ps:thanks for the everlast pants, i love it soo much wore it at practise yesterday and it waas so comfortable and nice to just jump around with, love u daddy!

wedding show

2009-07-20T20:09:00.004+08:00

Roysten Julian and Peirera Karen

2009-07-20T18:48:00.004+08:00

cloud number 9

2009-07-15T23:54:00.002+08:00

Although im super doper sleepy right now in bed i just simply told myself i have to blog about today because i really enjoy every minute of it. well me and dii went out today.innitially this outing was plan last week and was cancel a day before which was on tuesday, of coarse i was upsad all all but i was sure dii has his reason which he explain to me then he jump up a question and ask to go out, we went to suntec to catch a movie Ice Age 3 it was a funny cute movie. about friendship,sacrifices and family. nice movie i give it 3.5/5..

after which we walk around to the sword shop, the cartoon shop then to toys'r'us which made us like kids.. dii was jumping around eyeing this $219 Ultimate Bumble'bee while i soo admire the baby cradle and the GI Joe toys. then i decided to buy the kids a set each of Bumble Bee school bag which they are sooo happy and excited when they got it. after all this we decided to go down to ECP just to chill by the beach.. what more could i ask for?

hmm, im soo happy and bersyukur things are slowly working out between us. i guess prayers plays a very big part and role.

at the end of the day i can see dii was sooo sleepy cause he woke up at 730am for this jogging that they had and after which a short briefing and they went to sakura for lunch ok its not a normal one it was a BIG one,top it on, tmr he is working morning shift. despite all this "tired trauma" that he is going thru he still push in between time for us.. its all this tiny small things that make a girl feel that an effort is put into the relationship and all this tiny invisible details and sacrifices is where love is built. all i can say is ..... oops, not to be shared for this part! niway today i feel like i was flying above the moonlight.cause im in soo clod number 9..haiz..

ps: can i stay with this feeling forever?

hmm to end this i have to really get back to bed now, tmr ive got wake up early to prepare for Roy's wedding. yeap, im going to ROM for the first time just to see my cousin who is old enough to get his butt married.. pictures to uploaded when the wedding is done hehe...

my sushi

2009-07-13T23:28:00.003+08:00

OK have to definitely blog this part that im soo happy about. on saturday whichwas on the 11th dii and i drove down to imm and he bought for me YES!! finally Sushi!! Brought home to serve my cravings that i have been having for the past months..im soo happy and thanks dii for bringing me to imm.i manage to go to daiso to buy the frames that i have been wanting to buy..wanted to walk around so wanna get a top at Esprit but imm was too over crowded that brought my mood down to even walk and shop. so just grab whats important and of coarse the main dish of Sushi and the frames then off back home.

alhamdullilah mommy and daddy are back home from trenganu.the mosque that mom have been telling me was so gorgeous. Masjid Mutiara, Crystal Mosque, its so beautiful from the pictures that they showed.

niway mom said most likely going to Ikea tmr, im planning to buy this full length mirror have o see how it goes first.
like usual, dii works nite today thats why its so difficult for me to sleep.

ps: ...iid uoy htiw evolni os mi

33yrs wedding anniversary

2009-07-13T21:47:00.002+08:00

Well suppose to update this part a week ago. 2nd july marks mommy and daddy 33rd wedding anniversary how fast truly past and i would say they really went thru alot as one.i always pray for them,their happiness and their after life. i love them soo much..they have never stop showering me with love when im happy and when im sad. they showed me the true meaning of love which is patience,sincere,honesty and lots of prayers.with a pure heart and true love with Allah, no love can ever go wrong..

sleepy

2009-07-09T23:40:00.002+08:00

I know i know im soo slow in updating..well lately im just busy..mom and dad went Terenganu on monday me and dii sent them off to Golden mile and they took a straight bus. 9 hours journey woow, i would be sleeping the whole journey. niway insya'allah they will be back this saturday nite. while they are away All the housework, cooking, and taking care of the kids are officially handed over to me. so by night im soo sleepy to even do anything except today cause dii is working night shift. so i have been cooking.yesterday i cook sweet sour prawn with chicken soup and for today i cook Lauk Lemak Tempe with sambal sotong.hahah so far the dishes turn out great..proud of myself! ouh yea the pics below are actually from monday night. after sedning mom and dad, me and dii decided to have dinner outside so we went down to Newton Circus. it was my first time there and i am soo amaze with the food.we had kerang, sweet sour chicken and grilled fish..delicious!! planning to bring mom and dad there then i have a chance to eat the lobster hehe..

other than this life havebeen simply just tired.. told to be doing this and that but i like being tired helps me to sleep..hehe,yeap have been having this sleeping problem.niway *random*: this lucky song is my latest most favourite song.just love hearing it in the car!

between me and dii alhamdullilah everything is turning out fine but deep down in my heart i know that we will fight one day i mean relationships has its ups and downs right? just that im so afraid of losing, ive lost soo much this past years, a brother, friends, dreams and losing him is the last most furtherst thing on my mind. ive fall too much in this love..however still i pray for the best of this relationship. love eu dii.

inlove

2009-06-30T18:57:00.002+08:00

just a random blog.. feel like it..hehe..
niway im still having my sore body since sunday. had this physical training on sunday

morning..although i was sleepy driving early in the morning but its the best for me so i went down to ecp to meet the rest of ayunda. so had this hardcore 5hours training..and i had to deserve the pleasure of pain for the past two days.. hehe..

niway yesterday me and dii we went down to ecp and spend the whole day there..the weather was great at first comes evening it started to rain we left after magrib. we manage to spent quality time which i think this relationship deserve. qualtity time and good communication. which we did. it was fun i just looove beaches..maybe some day dii we can go Perth or something i heard the beach there is wAYY better!

so after which i got into the car from the way i drive dii knew i was starving hehe.. ouh yeah there was 2 accident in PIE haiz the road was a stretch! dii decided to have dinner at MUFIZ which is located at Bukit Batok. the food was super great ok! the give us more than we can eat. i ordered Nasi pattaya just eating 1/4 of it makes me all full..dii enjoyed his Mee GoRENg mata lembu.then i send dii back and i proceeded home. both of us was super sleepy..seriously i was soo sleepy woke up late today hehe.. i think its the sore-ing of the body that makes my whole moody soo shag. but kesian lagi dii he had to work back as normal today. hmm dii another trip to ecp?

ps: im inlove with my dii *random!*

thursday 25 06 09

2009-06-28T20:09:00.005+08:00

well on thursday meet up with dii after his in-service and then went over his place for him to change.yeap he wore the top that i bought for him as a birthday present. then we took the train and went to dhoby gaut had lunch at Secret Receipe which dii insist then once after we watch Transformer! Woohoo... best okay! i rate it as 4.5 / 5.. less 0.5 due the sound system.. its quite soft.i was expecting it to be full blast. we end the day once after the movie dii came over my place then at night send him home by car.. best best day!

this is a random post cause i wanna upload the photo's!

enjoy, toodles!

soo excited for tmr!

with great memories, Michael Jackson

2009-06-26T18:10:00.004+08:00

I was woken up today by a most saddening umbelievable and shocking news. a news of a great legend,idol,icon and a person i personally grew up hearing to his music and just adore to his moves that he brilliantly made exist. He creates the moonwalk he created the fashion of gloves and the socks and pants.i just simply adore this legend. I mean who in this world wouldnt know him. just say his name and everyone will wakes up and simply with a snap of finger they would know him.

The lost of him has been a trauma for all over in the world.i spent the whole day sitting infront of the tv watching BBC and CNN just showing again and again of the same thing..His past and all the great achievements of his life. He started as an entertainer since 5 and even on his last day of his life he is still an entertainer. that shows a total of 45years of non stop show biz.who can ever beat that record? 13 GRammy, 2 walk of fame(himself and with the Jackson5) over 1OM albums sold just for Thriller and over 750million albums of his sold worldwode.

Although he might have lots of negativity that happen upon his life i still personal truly idolised how he can just stand up for his own rights. who wouldnt have their downs in life but being the icon of all time he still remain calm and collected. Having to smile and taking pictures even when he is sad or angry, he still puts a smile across the world.

Im truly saddened for the lost of him. A person i idol in the dancing arena. A great all-time Choreographer,Performer,Singer and Songwriter.. He will always be my Peterpan that i will bring down to my children.We will all miss you truly. I am honoured to be living and getting a chance to know who he is and live in his generation of music.

Michael Jackson

"May Allah always be with you"

29th August 1958 - 25th June 2009

a normal blog

2009-06-24T20:08:00.004+08:00

HELLO! well as you notice i have no been updating my blog since last 2 weeks cause tons of stuff have been happening.

niway i guess its life with the ups and downs. but insya'allah like what my blog says, "i will always pray for the best for us" well in the sadness that happen theres alot of things that happen and when the sadness was over alot of things also happen like dii 22nd birthday,dii idol audition, my atrika dance fest, welcoming of our baby, the brothers birthday bash.

alhamdullilah today marks our 1year 6months anniversary. i was sooo sick that i forgot today is 24th. i dengan semangat tot tmr is 24th hehe.. yeap ive been down with fever flu sore throat headache for the past 3days. but alhamdullilah the fever is getting better today. back to what ive been saying, i feel so happy to be in a relationship with dii all this months and year.although june have been a down fall for us we manage to work things out.wah its half way thru our 2years how proud can i feel..im so excited to look forward for our future insya'allah..

To dii,

We have been thru alot and its obvious now we know each other inside out. we have a whole future and alot of things to accomplish to have a successful future. now that 22 my baby is still my baby..dii i know its a bit late but HAPPY BIRTHDAY sayang..The only advise i can give is, i know you have alot that u want to achieve just dont rush through it cause i dont want you to get so stressful when things u plan comes slower than you expected it. Im sorry i didnt buy you any poshy classy gifts but what i bought for you really means alot. I hope the shoe will be a lucky shoe for you when u walk thru you life in the future ahead.I will always love you for who you are and not what you are. I will always be here for you and your family. never once have i regretted knowing a someone like you. will always pray for the best of us.May Allah blessed our relationship. Happy anniversary and happy birthday. ""Love Eu""

23rd June 09

2009-06-24T13:11:00.005+08:00

21st June 09

2009-06-24T12:57:00.006+08:00

20th June 09

2009-06-24T12:24:00.008+08:00

9th June 09

2009-06-24T12:16:00.003+08:00

31st May 2009

2009-06-23T15:28:00.011+08:00

LIFE

2009-06-18T12:38:00.002+08:00

Alhamdullilah for this few weeks problems that occur that made a huge impact to me ive tried to make a soul search and try to solve it all. now im just afraid so much that problem might come again once u are done with one. Problems come and go which is part of life which i clearly understands and know but problems also do occur to make u separate from the person that you love which im not ready to face again. Life is soo unfair. but im sure there is a purpose to everything that happens. just that i dont know why am i soo weak and scared when its right infront of your face. like ive always said i will always pray for the best of our relationship cause

I Love You so much.

one after another

2009-06-15T13:45:00.003+08:00

I dont even know where to start. problems keep coming one after another. when i thought one is settled another came and when its settled another came. i feel so low and so small. i feel like giving up. there's no point in living when all i know is im not appreciated in this world. it definitely hurts especially coming from people that you love, you care, you trust soo much. tell me whats the point to live? i just wish i could get into an accident and end my life just like that. i want to be with abang so much. atleast i know he appreciates me and will always console me when im down. hehe buy me ice cream everytime i shed a tear. and at times he will just say he will buy me an ice cream just to make me smile in the end he didnt. i just want to feel appreciated and feel worth it. what happen make me feel so c-. i dont even know what to say who to go to..i dont know who will just hug me when i dont even have to say i need a hug. i just pray every single day my day will end soon.

may Allah makburkan this doa.

ur my love

2009-06-11T00:46:00.002+08:00

well lots of stuff happen that i just simply had absolutely no mood to be even online or even update my blog or share around. but alhamdullilah all the tears and heart ache paid off when everything was talk on top the table and everything was settle. at this moment i wanna say a BIG HUGE thank you to B for being there for me, listening to me, motivating me and she never fail to msg me morning afternoon night and asking me how was i and all. i felt like im not alone. she was there every single time. i owe u ALOT! to dii lets keep everything to ourselve.. both of us made our mistakes and both of us settle everything. im just soo happy that whats happened is done over thrown out the window lock out of the house. i love you sho much dii i dont know how to describe. im just so happy that u came to my house and sit and talk not just to me but infront of my parents. ur the love of my life. im just so excited to meet u and spend time with u!

may Allah always blessed our relationship, insya'allah amin.
i love eu.

heartbreak

2009-06-03T23:42:00.006+08:00

something is just so much bothering me especially these 2 days. things just erupted, u got silent and i got confused. confused thinking is what u said everything is what you really meant or is it due to the anger u have built up. the word "i dont feel the connection" really dash and broke my heart.yeap i did say back thats only because i was so angry after hearing u say it to me. but i did mention i want to settle it and instead u did what u did. the whole family saw my difference and ask, what am i suppose to answer. just now they even ask about the mersing trip, r u joining or are u not? i am just so shock how cold u can keep away from me? how silent u can keep? and i will forever wait to how long u going to take. sometimes i think back what i said its true, i always worry that one day you will give up on me and u will say the person who say will do it but look what happen. there must be a reason to your behaviour but i guess that will just be a question that is hang.i know your so very confuse with your life and your future but dont run away from problems you have to think,work hard for what you want not just getting angry every time you feel like it. my heart really breaks and crumble down to pieces when u just hang up the phone and kept silent for 2 days.but in this heartbreak i still love you.

i have been rethinking about what happen over and over again and what am i to do with this tears. everyday i pray just praying this 1 year 5months just dont go down the drain cause i treasure every second with you and its just not only me but the whole family and all was surprise and shocked to what happen to us. i admit i had my floss and i did some wrongs.however never before have i any intentions of giving up and if there is a problem, solve it but if keeping quite and giving up is what u want then tell me.

Saturday 30th June

2009-06-03T16:28:00.003+08:00

Pictures taken during the show at Bedok Reservoir. Tag along during the show was, Fauzie Laili, Shahrin or Sharil his name from Anugerah Skrin and Elfie Iskandar and Dynaz from HotFm Malaysia.

Miss Sad Face

2009-06-02T01:16:00.003+08:00

lifes not getting great. im not dwelling over how bad it is instead im just praying for the best of it all.everything seems to be going out of shape. it just sad to think of the 3 years part. sad to know how some can just hang up on ur life..sad to know how some just get so fed up with you.sad to know when u want that person to be right infront of u but i cant see abang. i hate all this feelings and headache. everything is not going the direction ive planed. hating is not a good thing but haiz the happiest day of my life just tend to be ending soo much dreadful and to smoke..

back...

2009-05-28T00:28:00.003+08:00

got back from k.l earlier today around 8pm just now. well im just so disappointed. -seriously-

all my hardwork, my three years of waiting for pain sweat and tears are i guess in some ways are basically all down the drain. i mean i took o levels for just one purpose. once i heard what he say all in my mind was simply "forget it". once it i couldnt care less what they said.. daddy say the look of me is so fed-up. i mean who wouldnt. tears were already build up.but i cant just dwell over. i have to get up and act fast. think of a second plan. i means its for my own future sake. but i couldnt lie the fact its still aches my heart and simply disappointing. i nearly told myself to stop and give up what i love since 7 but i couldnt.this is what i love and i mad wonderful friends in LaLeLi. but for me to make it for a career i dont know.

right now, these few days and months im going to have to do lots of thinking and research. hopefully im going to meet Sir Ajit to get some advice and help out to make a decision.

ps: dii i need ur hug.

Surah Al-Fatiha

2009-05-23T01:58:00.002+08:00

بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَٰنِ الرَّحِيمِ

Dengan nama Allah, Yang Maha Pemurah, lagi Maha Mengasihani.

الْحَمْدُ لِلَّهِ رَبِّ الْعَالَمِينَ

Segala puji tertentu bagi Allah, Tuhan yang Memelihara dan Mentadbirkan sekalian alam.

الرَّحْمَٰنِ الرَّحِيمِ

Yang Maha Pemurah, lagi Maha Mengasihani.

مَالِكِ يَوْمِ الدِّينِ

Yang Menguasai pemerintahan hari Pembalasan (hari akhirat).

إِيَّاكَ نَعْبُدُ وَإِيَّاكَ نَسْتَعِينُ

Engkaulah sahaja (Ya Allah) Yang Kami sembah dan kepada Engkaulah sahaja kami memohon pertolongan.

اهْدِنَا الصِّرَاطَ الْمُسْتَقِيمَ

Tunjukilah kami jalan yang lurus.

صِرَاطَ الَّذِينَ أَنْعَمْتَ عَلَيْهِمْ غَيْرِ الْمَغْضُوبِ عَلَيْهِمْ وَلَا الضَّالِّينَ

Iaitu jalan orang-orang yang Engkau telah kurniakan nikmat kepada mereka, bukan (jalan) orang-orang yang Engkau telah murkai dan bukan pula (jalan) orang-orang yang sesat.

From tea to aet?

2009-05-21T13:03:00.007+08:00

"greeting my fellow mates!"

yeap i know my blog is beginning to have this spider webs hehehe.. just been busy thats all...

well for a start see the difference in my blogskin right.. long story, wanted to change didi blogskin but in the end i deleted my blogskin and i have to redo my blogskin back from scratch..but i like this one..i use to skins and combine to one..to bad kan? hehe..

hmm ouh yea for the last weekend, rent the car like usual, then on saturday its was dii 2nd off day and went to abang's place then at night me kakak mommy and dii went to mustafa centre around 9.30 we left home. and the road was sooo HECTIC.. gosh i feel like im soo not in spore, the road is small and every corner and inch there is a car just simply waiting to cut to ur major road.and what more the traffic light which is working and not working at times. but we manage to get everything right and safe.. got back home at around 1plus in the morning..

on sunday morning didnt do much,but i went for my LaLeLi..brought the whole family to "District" and they took a cab to go straight to east coast.. i had practise so i couldnt sent them straight. once finish my LaLeLi, me and kakak made our way straight to east coast.

for monday, ouh me and mommy went to Geylang best.. some stuff happen, very funny but sorry can not share.. its soo embarrasing and funny.hey, it did scare the shit out of me OKAY!
monday nite we return back the car.

ouh yea, me and dii manage to spent time..although not 100% cause dii just came back from night shift still the sacrifice thing place a part.suppose to go out on wednesday but he has 'in-service'..so on tuesday we had lunch at KFC but i was soo happy to eat KFC cause this time its the best food..its crispy and hot and nice. then dii notice that the KFC is having their check so they have to follow the procedure, best or what? then we watch movie for me the first time at Suntec Eng Wah cinema.. we watch Angels And Demons. its a must watch okay,im giving it 10/10 '5*****' and we seat on the couple seat which is the sofa, best.. but i still prefer the atmosphere at Cathay. hehe, i sooo wanna watch "Night at the Museum 2"...i sooooooo want to.. i dont care i waaaaaant too..

thats it for this week..nothing more intresting happen so have to wait for next when i go for my K.L trip..yeap soo preparing my "prep" for next week.. NERVOUS breakdown hehe...

p.s: dii i wanna spent more time, maybe for the start of the date we watch night at the museum k?

monday for mother.

2009-05-14T13:52:00.002+08:00

well for monday daddy was on his off day replacement for Vesak day. we drove around town, we went to Suntec then to Masjid Mohd Salleh at Tanjong Pagar. yeap, didii was with us the whole time, he was leading and guided me alot. then at nite, me dii and dad surprise mommy for a dinner trip..Some sort of last mother's day present. After mom finish her PA at 10.00pm we pick her up and drove all the way down to Sempang Bedok its near ITE Simei. forgot to take the picture of the Sliced Fish soup. the rest is below. then i realise, i didnt take any pictures with dii..

Batam Trip

2009-05-14T12:53:00.005+08:00

Saturday, Sunday

2009-05-14T12:39:00.002+08:00

For the weekend, mom and dad were away. They had their own Mother's Day event at Batam. They followed their Babus Salam Agency for the event.. Im soo going to upload the pictures they took of the hotel. Its soo cool. the look of the hotel is of a Big Titanic ship. Will upload later. so, on saturday, me kakak and the kids we drove all the way up to Sembawang, it was like an Amazing Race but a fun one. we met up with Dasun cause he is going to help to repair my cousin, Rufina computer. Dasun is an IT expert. not only did he help to do the computer he also helps to repair her IPOD and Digi cam and video cam. so u guys out there who needs help on the computer do inform yea. so we stayed like till 11.30pm and got home but before reaching home we got hungry so we made our way to Teh Tarik and dii join us there. it was near to his home. we ordered most Delicious food. hehe..

for sunday, woke up late! but i quickly got ready and went over to Mama house and Nenek place to pass their Mother's day present. then around 2 got back and get ready to go abang's place. after which me and kakak went to gk poh to buy cake. got home and i got ready to pick mommy and daddy up from harbour front. which i was alone and i did the parking and everything all alone. once home we surprise mommy with the cake kakak and the kids were behind the door hehe.. and daddy was soo great enough to order Pizza!

-the picture hassan took with is Dasun, we just feel like dasun and hassan simply look alike.

take this and that

2009-05-05T15:42:00.005+08:00

here's the stuff that i bought for myself hehe.. i did bought also for my Didii..and for Mama and Nenek some Mother's Day gift.

our Third Day in K.L

2009-05-05T15:39:00.000+08:00

Our third day absolutely no pictures hehee... i just got lazy taking pictures cause we didnt do much posing at all. well after checking out at 12pm we made our way to China Town kakak bought another bag and so did mommy, surprising i didnt buy Anything! then we had lunch at the briyani store near Masjid India. took our bus at 4.30pm and got home at 12.30am. yeap thats late cause there was a traffic jam at Johore and the bus driver made 2 unreasonable stop overs. and a 1hour jam at the checkpoint. kesian dii, he waited at home till 11plus and went home..

our Second Day in K.L

2009-05-05T14:01:00.010+08:00

Well for the second day, we started off at 11am. we went to walk around to masjid india thats when me and kakak got crazy seeing brooches.at a cheap price, RM10 no way to get in Spore.then we bought tudung and tops at First Lady. hehe, best tau...just take what u want..then we went to Sogo which daddy spent almost $**** just for himself and bought for dii as well..i had the privilage of choosing.heheh..we had lunch at Secret Recipe.then we went back to our hotel for prayers.then rest awhile.once after magrib we went to Berjaya Times Square.The kids wanted to go there i have no idea why..i think they just simply like the sound and vibration of the roller coaster. we then had dinner at daddy's favourite, The Chicken Rice store.

here's the picture ::

apple juice with kasturi (daddy's drink),ice lemon tea(my drink),watermelon juice(kids drink)

Nasi Goreng Thailand

Kakak's Meal

Chicken Cordon Bleu

My meal

Fish n Chip

Hassan, Daddy and Mommy's meal

Chicken Burger Meal

Luqman's Meal

Our First day in K.L

2009-05-05T13:06:00.008+08:00

ok this pictures below is related to our first day in K.L.. before checkin in we went to have lunch at Kenny Roger's and sadly i didnt bring my digi cam to capture the pictures.then after it we check in at 3.30pm..freshen up and after Asar we start walking around..we went to Masjid India and walk straight down to Sogo..arh, they are having this BIG sale.. daddy bought the kids clothes, kakak a bag and for me he finally bought me this Guess wallet that ive been wanting so much!! after much walking and surveying we got back to our hotel and as usual our routine to buy this K.L Rojak that is Only sold at this shop just beside our Hotel.. the picture is below..i just love it.. its like we pick the choices got, telur penyu, and the seafood stuffs and they will deep it in boiled water and serve it with the sos that is soo damn incredible..

we Didnt take much pictures cause we did lots of walking and buying hehe..

still here's the dinner we ate at the hotel.

rented weekend

2009-05-04T11:52:00.009+08:00

this is such a late update.. this update is about the previous weekend, which is on 24,25,26 April. daddy and mommy ented a 4-seater Fiat from friday and return it on monday.so on friday daddy took leave.as soon as we took the car from the carpark, the first place we went was to abang's house. after it to grandma's place then drove around our area. sent daddy to the clinicand thats when i drove by myself. after it came back home fetch mommy and luqman send mommy to the market, send luqman to school then met dii and send him and daddy to mosque for friday prayers. after which, fetch mommy from market back home\then took hassan from school and to the mosque to fetch daddy and dii and came back home for a rest. dii was working nightshift on that day so around 5.30 daddy accompany me to sent him to his workplace then otw back we took luqman. so after magrib i slept for a rest.. but once after isyak and dinner, me daddy and kakak took the car and drove all the way down to the changi airport. hehe.. it was so fun doing nothing at the airport late at night.at around 1230 we came back home.

for the second day,a little messy in the morning but everything turn out well.after zhuhur me daddy and dii went to Golden Landmark cause daddy want to meet with the agency. while waiting me and dii drove around town. then met with daddy sholat at masjd Sultan and we came back home.after asar around 5pm we made our way to abang's place. since its a 4seater car i made a 2way. after everything we settle came back home and after isyak Again we went to the airport this time it was the kids me and dii..thats when comes all this crazy pictures we took haha..it was after midnight so thats why we are all crazy.. for sunday i had LaLeLi so dii and kakak followed me there, dii had to follow to show me the way. then after it finally w went to Sempang Bedok. haha it was a GREAT place to eat 5star okay! i couldnt eat much cause im afraid hehehe..im driving u know.. for monday didnt do much ..

for my K.L maybe by this week ok, still got to upload edit and all for the pictures..

k long entry im tired hehe, here's the pictures..

random but lots

2009-04-23T17:00:00.002+08:00

Hmm not been updating for much cause im like clueless on what to update.. haha i was online to watch youtube yeap yeap, America Next Top Model Cycle 12. on chanel 5 their showing the cycle 11 which ive already watch complete, and i know who is the winner ahahaha... to those who have yet watch cycle 11, the episode on their 'Go-see' is the best one..

niway have been on to the computer since mornign..im like transferring my fav songs from the computer to the lappy all by bluetooth..im not gonna use my USB.. i dont want my lappy to be corrupted, NO WAY!

well i soo can't wait for the weekends.. yeap, im joining a new crew called the "Road". ahaha, so do welcome me in a nice way yea.

yesterday went around to Jurong Point to the popular to get the plate and the map book(which i sooo dont get it) so im gonna stick to the computer one. then i went to 7-11 to buy the coupons and top up abang cash-card. yeap im going to use his cashcard, was shock though balance of $10 inside. well today going to go down to get the keys. yahoo!

ouh yea, tmr nite me and kakak have already plan too go OUT, yeap going to be nite owl! i mean since u have paid for the rent my as well use it all out rite? saturday going to bring mommy and daddy out .. i hope dii can join along..

for sunday YEAH there is LaLeli. no way am i going to miss this one. i know ive missed aLOT!! well bukan segaja seh its just that ive been spending time with my most important thing in my life,My Family. and next week i can't make it cause im going to be in K.L. so this week is a must! and im like soo excited! dii, teman pleasE?

hmm im soo excited for KL trip but at the same time im sad.. very very sad... next week sunday will be Anugerah09 audition and dii is going and i can't go with him.. which i soo wanna be there.. it will be the greatest miss..ive like always wanted to follow him to audition ever since im with him. but mesti ade sebab disebaliknya,kan? but for Singapore Idol its a must for me to go.. MUST MUST MUST!! Daddy say no more plans till june so stick with it k daddy!

ps: i miss u sho much.

XPERIA X1

2009-04-21T14:32:00.002+08:00

Its a gift from deariest daddy. of coarse i was shocked when i get to know he ordered it before hand.and yesterday we got it from the shop.this is more than just "happy".. i was really bersyukur/thankful to Allah for this. Rezeki datang dari Allah. well daddy got bonus and he said as a gift of me passing ur yycl here's s gift. Then he started his talk like, "u better take care of this like its ur husband" and more.hehe..

Thank you daddy so much. This is not spoiling but love from a dad to his daughter. i just can't live without mommy and daddy..they perform umrah i already cry everday cause of miss..hehe..

Can't wait for the weekend. maybe we're renting it but ain't sure yet. but if we do then, RONDA-RONDA!! hehe... first place to go is Abang place, thats for sure!

my mersing trip

2009-04-20T12:31:00.024+08:00

The Mesing was a best trip. It was so fun, peaceful s relaxing trip. only that one night is just not enough. insya'allah we are planning to go again in June! well the food was great the beach was great the swimming pool was amazing, and the sight was amazing.. here's the pictures ::

my sayang

2009-04-17T13:21:00.003+08:00

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SUV Honda Pilot (Touring) 2009..

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safwa, this is the one that i want.. hehe..

but i gues i have to wait looooonnnng loooongg....

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the story

2009-04-17T12:33:00.002+08:00

Well as said, i have uploaded the pictures.. didn't take much picture though.. well now let me just briefly describe what happen..

we took bus from Larkin a 3 hours trip.. our bus was at 9 so we reached at 12. check in to our no.1 favourite 5star EQ Hotel.then daddy n the kids went went for friday prayers while the girls stayed at the hotel.. they came back at around 3 then we went for lunch at a nearby restaurant. took light lunch. after which kakak and i decided to just walk around the shopping centre. well there is 2 shopping centre actually. while mommy daddy bring the kids to the hotel swimming pool. kakak and i didnt buy much cause they didnt sell anything exciting. she bought this bag kinda similar to my black bag just that its a bit smaller. and i bought this set brush at Salsa.then art around 6.30 we came back had our prayers and all then went down back for dinner.

Before dinner we went to find the atok haha... he is soo cute. but sadly he sleeps at his becha, the trishaw. after meeting him went down to our favourite seafood place where we ate with abang. we ordered this steam fish, kerang (which was soo worth it cause they gave us soo many), had fried prawn, and my all time favourite Blue Ocean coctail. spent like RM104. WORTH IT kan!

one sad part was i could hardly eat. my left side back jaw was having ulcer i could hardly open my mouth cause it hurts but i fight against it.

the second day, my left cheek was swollen. it looks good though makes me look like im chubby. but only god knows my pain. i could hardly even sleep. niway, thesecond day after having breakfast we got ready to go to Pulau Besar. Arpund 11 the taxi came and took us off. we took the 11.30 ferry and got there at 11.45. we were welcome by Abang din, upon reaching we checked in first then straight went down for our zhuhur prayers at the mosque. then we went over to abang din spot and met the rest of his brothers. they were preparing to do Korban of 3 goats. i didnt have the nerves to see it. then before asar we had a small lunch, mee maggi goreng. then off to asar prayers. once done went back to our chalet to freshen up for magrib. magrib is when they start the maulid, berzanji and everything till like 9pm. we had our dinner and went back chalet.

third day, we woke up freshen up and check out at 12.30.. walk around the pulau awhile then we went for our prayers then off to jetty. we took the 2.30 ferry and reach Melaka central at around 3.15. what took it long was because from the jetty to m.central we took the taxi and it was raining sooooo HEAVILY. trust me it was soo heavy. u cant even see the road line divider or anything. it was so blurry and dangerous. my throat was in shock! but we reach safely.

there, we ate at the chicken rice store that we just love to eat. it nice ok! then walk around, try to find something for dii which i finally manage to a Polo shirt which he likes.

then we took our bus at 6 reach at larkin at 9, drove back with Aloy's van. reach home at around 9.30pm.

i didnt actually enjoyed 100% the whole trip case i was in pain pain pain.. its like the veins shoot straight to my head migrane+the swollen pain+ everthing hehe.. but i aint gonna dwell over it cause when i came back and had my rest and all on monday the pain was recovering. hehe..

now thats my trip i just can't wait for tmr's trip to MERSING with didii and the family. although i can't swim im gonna have tons of fun.. can't wait for the karaoke session with dii.. YAHOO!

melaka trip picturess april 10.11.12

2009-04-17T10:56:00.006+08:00

exhaust but alhamdullilah

2009-04-14T19:47:00.002+08:00

have been doing much lately.. still trying to catch my sleep back from Malacca.

pictures to be uploaded soon..

ouh yeah, ALHAMDULLILAH..
its like my 1st childhood dream come true..

one thing im sad i couldnt share this joyous moment of my life with abang but i know he is proud of me and will be punching my hand muscle if he is around, rite?

can't wait for Mersing trip.. beach, swim, fun fun fun dii is going also.. YAHOO!

just feel soo sleepy and tired rite now..

to blog soon!

notes

2009-04-08T13:43:00.005+08:00

Dalam suatu ungkapan ada dikatakan, bahawa dunia ini adalah penjara bagi orang-orang yang beriman, dan syurga bagi orang-orang kafir.

Ketika menjelaskan ungkapan tersebut, Abu Lais berkata : Bagi orang mukmin meskipun adakalanya ia hidup dalam keadaan mewah dan penuh kenikmatan di dunia ini, akan tetapi jika dibandingkan dengan nikmat yang disediakan untuknya di syurga, maka seolah-olah ia berada dalam penjara, sebab jika seseorang mati dan diperlihatkan kepadanya tentang syurga dan kemuliaan yang ada di dalamnya, ia sedar bahawa selama ia hidup di dunia seolah-olah ia berada dalam penjara.

Sedangkan orang-orang kafir, jika ia mati dan diperlihatkan kepadanya hukuman dalam neraka, maka ia rasa bahawa ia tadinya berada dalam syurga. Kerana itu seorang yang berakal tidak akan merasa gembira dalam penjara.

Jadi jika kita telah memahami dan mengerti, bahawa dunia adalah tempat cubaan serta penuh dengan kesusahan, maka tidak sepatutnya seseorang itu harus berputus asa dan mengeluh jika ada musiba yang menimpa dirinya.

note

2009-04-07T14:19:00.000+08:00

Bagi orang terken musibah,hendaklah is selalu melihat dengan mata hatinya, bahawa sesungguhnya kepahitan yang dialami di dunia inilah adalah emanisan di alam akhirat, kemanisan di dunia adalah kepahitan di akhirat.Hal yang demikian itu memang telah merupakan ketentuan dari Allah SWT.

“Tidak ada suatu musibahpun yang menimpa diri seseorangkecuali dengan izin Allah, dan barangsiapa yang beriman kepada Allah, nescaya Allah akan memberi petunjuk kepada hatinya”.

whats what

2009-04-07T14:15:00.002+08:00

Days hours and minutes and even seconds have been going just extremely fast. I dont know whats up with Friday night that got me thinking about life, death and whats-after.

Maybe reason part of it is in a month i went to visit 2 friends in the hospital both bikes accidents but badly injured. One is my Lalali brother who met in an accident near City Hall and he was hit and drag by a cab.been in the Neuroscience ICU uniti for weeks and last two days mark his 1month.upon visiting him,seeing him really break my hearts into tears. To add on, last Monday me and dii visit Norhan. He works in GekPoh macdonald the only Coca Cola design who works there. His story is saddening too. He was on his way back with a lady as his pillion.suddenly the was this lorry indian driver who wants to make a right turn and didnt notice him hit his bike and the lady dlew off and was drove ontop at her stomach by a lorry she was pronouce dead at instance. Just wonder she is a mother of two ok im not going to judge her or what so ever i mean everone has their mistakes and wrong doings but thats not how they are judge upon. Right? For Norhan he was admited to ICU for weeks then now recovering as he was cautious on the second week and was brought to the normal ward.

More to say, i went for LaleLi on Sunday as usual, upon reaching there was this group of about 30-35 bikers convoy. I think the groom must be one of a biker boy. It was a wedding thingy. And tears just rush to my eyes. Just two thinks in my mind. 1st i remembered when abang left there was a convoy to the cemetry area and it feels and sounds the same. 2nd was i will never ever be able to see, go thru a wedding from my brother.

All this just makes me SPEECH, SPEEchless

As the days pass by and abang just keep coming to my mind. Tons of why this and why that question me. Alhamdullilah i redha and tawakal with Qadhak and Qadar. However the sadness and trauma of what happen just keeps coming. I found this book that ive started reading. I give “Thumps-up” for the book. It really makes be change the way i see things. Appreciate things. The title of the book is ‘Rahmay Disebalik Dugaan’. I may be sharing definitely all the useful notes that i have joted down.

Some may be asking what im really doing right now. Well i have lots of plans ahead of me but im not ready to spread it out yet. Cause i don’t know whether its all confirm yet or not. Registration and all are done only answers are awaiting. The reason for not sharing is just i dont want go goo-goo gaga all excited about it and in the end disappointment is all i get. I am just going with the flow of things, finding peace in my heart and i really want to start afresh as a new person. Like what i read in Adeq blog the perfect word is “Soul-searching’ i would say.

For now i thank Allah for what he has given me.

shick sick

2009-03-30T15:35:00.003+08:00

my weekend was ok i would say.although both sat n sunday didnt get a chance to meet dii.. :( now im just praying for the time to pass a bit faster to thursday..

niway sunday training was cancel so me and kakak decided to go hehe the Airport. of coarse the airport thing was her idea. walk around ate at popeye did small shoppings. i bought these keychain for dii and this name thingy and also bought this puzzle thingy. not going to describe in deep detail later no surprise.

then today i woke up with a chest pain. urg! didnt go EBS stayed home. didnt sleep properly the whole night. its like suddenly my heart beats fast then the pain comes then back to normal. its like a come and go thingy.then mommy gave me this egg yok & honey. now the heart beats normal only a bit pain in the chest. i wish dii would come over although i know he is going home late and all.

im having my craving. i wanna eat Nasi Lemak Power the one at boon lay shopping centre and i wanna eat this Japanese set mean that use to have at JP Banquet. i wonder where the stall has disappered to.. ooo.. im soo hungry now. haven ate my lunch. my head is still abit dizzy. hmm.

niway i manage to update myself with people that are linked to my blog. and im shock to hear news.

-like Isaac was admitted to hospital? like what happen? i hope he will get better yea.

-then i read about Mel and Jas break-up ouh yea btw Happy Birthday Jas ur old already! hehe.. -then about shikin passing her final theory congrats to her.

-then haikel enjoying life..then Nurul Ain is in K.L..

-then Veron with his amazing happy life that he is in..

-about Adeq..had a chat with her.

-then ouh yea Shada is a police officgerl and lots other..

Happy to see how life of others are doing just fine. Insya'allah.

im hungry soo hungry right now... niway here's some picto of two crazy sisters on a sunday outing!

random boredness

2009-03-27T13:20:00.002+08:00

Not much for this week.. in baby EBS place now.. hmm lucky there is internet connection.. waiting for less than an hour then off to lunch then to Cambridge Office at City Hall then off home.. yeap early today howeveryesterday was a bit late.

well like said, not much for this week. for dii, he's been busy and tired and busy and tired. can't blame him been working for more than 14 hours each day yet the payment the same. NOT FAIR! kesian when i see or hear his voice. it's ok dii, we plan one day to go out and relax ok! i soo can't wait for you to tell me when!

for me im still waiting for the reply letter from Gonzales.. till today not a news yet.. hmm.. just waiting i mean what more can i do, rite!

till then pray pray pray lor..

es'pecial..

2009-03-25T13:32:00.005+08:00

i always tell dii how fast time always flies.

alhamdullilah and im so thankful to Allah although he took away my friends from me, he didnt take away one thing that im left with. A person that has become a a friend,best friend, my girlfriend and my boyfriend. He is complete all-in-one and completes me. He never am selfish to put himself first. Always has been there when i need him most.

I wouldnt lie we do have problems in between. Like an ocean that it will be impossible if it is always calm and quiet. I use to always say i cant wait to fight and see who the true dii inside out. That was like when we first got together. But now im just so afraid if we happen to argue or fight. Although we make ourselve learn and be mature as an individual i just can't bear to see our heart being so mad angry or hurt.

Everyone has their false in life. Like what Ustaz Hayy said, ade buruk ade baiknya, if there is good there is bad. People dont change its just in a person we have a thousand of split characters found. So at times that character will just come out.

To dii,

we've been thru alot and i learn alot from and with you. Im just happy, and i thank god that u have been there and here throughout my days, months and years. Been there when im flat on the ground like when abang left us. Althoug at times now u just dont know how to react when suddenly i cry about missing abang but that silence makes comfort and gave me a secure feeling that i want. thanks dii for everything. may Allah blessed our relationship, insya'allah..

ps: one thing for sure, im having the best time of my life.

love is in the sun

2009-03-19T15:27:00.002+08:00

after a year and more, finally enough pestering with dii, he brought me to Sentosa.. heehe..
best giler .. it was a great trip.. we took lots of pictures more than what i publish on post. i had fun rite dii..?? blop blop blop..hehe..

not feeling really good today. didn't go to EBS either.. tummy hurts.. :(

just wanted to post up the pictures.

ps: i love you dii.. i love u soo much.

sentosa trip

2009-03-19T14:47:00.005+08:00

My 21st Birthday - saying.

2009-03-14T18:13:00.002+08:00

did lots od dissappointing things just to make me feel sad and angry. we met at around 11.45 at lakeside and made our way to somewhere. from somewhere we had lunch at Secret Receipe. and i ate Chicken Cordon Bleu. i recommend it 10*! it has ham and melting cheese in the chicken. just soo delicious. then after which we had to make our way back to lakeside to pick hassan up from school. throughout the morning and afternoon dii was busy on his phone telling me he has a surprise in meeting someone. i was cracking my head to whom im going to meet. i tot i was going to me "had n the group" i was so mad to the extreme. dii kept saying just meet to keep the bond. urg i nearly cried ok cause i hate them and u ask me to meet them on my birthday, how frustrating. but then he surprise me with B.. i was shocked, jaw opening, eyes tearing moment.i hug and i just cant stop asking this and that.its been months that we have not met.we all ordered ice cream . we sat at JP Swensen till like 5.30 and separated.

at home everything started after isyhak. mommy cooked cabonara spagetti and tomata spagetti and daddy bought tulang! ate this and that then, the last surprise came. from the cake to the gifts. i had to keep closing my eyes. well that was imans job taking towel, even paper plate to close my eyes. i just love every single gifts that i got. finally ive got my SANDALSs!!!! dii bought me s.f sandals and charles and keith shoes. its a very sweet and sofisticated shoe.im so gonna wear it on monday. iman bought me this handbag booklet that is so adorable. hassan bought me a Cecelia Ahern book which i already had. hehe..im still trying to get the receipt so i can go change. the last biggest gift was a gift from Abang which was bought on behalf of the whole family it was a Acer Handbook Lappy. i was in tears on joy and sadness.speechless. dii im so happy i could celebrate this day with people that i truly call family. and not just some we call family that comes and goes. thanks to Mel and Jas, hykel, B for their birthday messages. thanks again to B for the surprise meet. see this is call innitiative that could never be forgotten. thanks to dii for planning everything especially the part of making me angry.hehe..i just love the day..i thank god for making my prayers come true.

thanks abang, i love you.

My 21st Birthday - out

2009-03-14T17:16:00.004+08:00

MY 21st Birthday-at home

2009-03-14T11:53:00.009+08:00

sunday 080309

2009-03-11T12:34:00.003+08:00

sunday was fun.. but a tiring one for dii.. once he finish work from night shift we had to proceed to Woodlands. his team member Hisyam's wedding. dii promise for a silat which he did very good! the couple look fab and the food was the best briyani.. from the wedding around 3.45 we proceed to masjid sultan for maulid. its was just speechless.

ps: ...i miss abang so much..

out of time.

2009-03-07T20:58:00.002+08:00

many ask where ive hidden myself for the past whole week. hehe, well i was just simply busy and tired to even think. apart from problems i just was so tired and i didnt have to mood to blog. well since monday start ive been going to kakak new work place European Business School its at Lavender. yeap a new baby. and ive been helping out as interior designer hehe. which i am proud of my work.from tuesday till friday before going to EBS i had my yycl just early. so i had to leave home after subuh. and work ends at 6.30pm who would be tired. as for thursday and friday it ended at 9.30. i didnt had a chance to go for an outing that ive been wanting to go. My ex collegues, B,Lyana and Jannah made plans to meet at JP for dinner on friday but i couldnt make it. haiz. disappointed! sad! (more sad words).

tmr there wont be any LaLeLi but still i have to attend dii's friend wedding then after that we will be heading to Masjid Sultan meet up with the rest of the family for Maulidur Rasul. hmm how fast time flies. i just felt we just celebrated Maulid and its been a year already.

argh! im so excited+worried for monday yycl Again. just wish i could just pass and get over with it.insya'allah.

here's some pics i manage to take of our baby EBS.

my 03march out's

2009-03-07T20:17:00.004+08:00

it started as a humid day but i was prepared that the weather is going to rain. early morning Adeq came over for make up and all.she helped me out aLot.! then around 8.30 dii came over. around 9.00 we left by cab and made our way to Tiong Bahru. had this show. Fun-Tas-Tic. then after the show i changed and made my way with dii to his cousin's wedding at Sengkang. Luckily nenek was there. mama was the too but mama was busy walking around nenek was accompanying me and she was making me laugh all the way.Nenek u Wrock!

around 1.30 me dii and nenek took cab we send nenek to another wedding she had to attend at boon lay drive. after which me and dii went to the station and met up with Hadi and my ex school mate that ive not seen since graduation Atiqah. we made our way to dhoby gaut and bought tickets to watch movie and of all the movie we watch Bloody Valentine. haha it was damn Scary sh*t! i gave it 8/10. i didnt give full 10 cause pathetically there was no ending to the movie. urg of all the excitment and thrill the was no end..haiz but the best part was it was 3D and it was great. after movies we went to the Flyer to eat Popeye! then we walk to Marina Square to play pool.haha and it rain just like i Predicted! anyway, innitially intentions was to play bowling but it was crowded and all so plans change. after pool game which i was impress i was pretty good hehe, we settle down and talk and all at the macdonald till around 10+ then we took cab home. tiring day but, no regrets cause i enjoy hell of a time with them.so when's the next trip? till then here's pics!

daddys birthday

2009-03-07T20:00:00.004+08:00

its was a normal Thursday 26feb but a special one indeed. after a utmost "out day" for me it did turn out well especially knowing i have to keep my smiles and chins up as it was Daddy's 54th birthday. dii had to work the whole day but he still turn up at around 1030 till like after midnight.. u can actully how dreaded his eyes were. but thats my dearie! never fail to keep us happy...

here comes the pic.

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2009-02-24T15:38:00.001+08:00

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when work gets in the nerve..

2009-02-20T18:29:00.002+08:00

dii just went to work.. yep yesterday night shift he came back like at 10plus then sleep then at 420pm he woke up to go for another night shift. he sound so very tired i can't blame him i know how it feels when use to work at 711 491, rite b?

we were scream shout demoralize and everything just to get our ass to work at tip top working in a row like night shift 11pm to 7am then reach home at 8.30 sleep waking up at 130pm then do another afternoon shift of 3-11pm then reaching home at 12am then sleep and waking up at 5.30 and reach at 630 to work another morning shift at 7-3..not only that i had that stupid "re" to comit and ive got my dance to sqeeze thru woow life was like a nightmare..got sick most of the time but still got to work.. B knows how life was cause she was the only person i can relate to although she was working part time..

but dii just hang in there.. like mommy always say biar susah skg senang kemudian..

i cant ask much from dii cause he himself am very tired and no mood to talk and all so i cant force him and all.. will be waiting for u to be fresh like yesterday baby.. love eu.!

hurt to gone.

2009-02-20T14:51:00.002+08:00

Something was definitely somewhere wrong yesterday.

It started off great, dii got back day before yesterday and he come over yesterday. He bought me this beautiful shawl. Its has a very unique colour that has a combination and turns out a blast! I gave him the 3day diary I made for him. Ok about this dairy thing it came from the idea of abang. Years back when he was with Regina, Regina had to go out-station to London for hr architect work stuff so they had no way to contact for 1week or so. So on the first day abang ask me for a stack of full scap paper and a file. And I gave him my school full scap and my sch file. And he made this daily diary which he wrote every single detail of what he did, what he was thinking all equip detail. I was cheeky at that time to actually read the first 2days then I stop cause he really was personally about. From there I realise how romantic my brother could actually be. So I did the same thing when dii left to genting for 3days and I have absolutely no way to contact him. It really was genuine me inside out when I wrote that book dii and I just want u to know that. At home dii was telling us about his wonderful trip to genting which I so cant wait for his pictures to come. When I recall back when the last time our family went there. Was the first and the last time we went as a whole complete family. I took out our family video cam and watch it halfway. I was just simply speechless.

Dii had night shift yesterday. Ouh yea dii bought durians! Ate after lunch..

At night had a small tiff but settle it. But just one small thing that was so difficult for me to settle. I don’t know why everytime a tear that comes out from my eye I wish abang was there beside me telling me its ok or scolding me “why are u crying?” like he said in my dream. It was around 1.00am and I still couldn’t sleep.

Im just so disappointed to myself to why am I not perfect to make you the best and happy. Sometimes what I say I myself don’t realise that it actually hurts u. u expect more in me which sometimes I get confuse just afraid that it might turn to a mistake. I still have the “miss” in me that everytime u get a bit edgy I feel the hurt.

I close the TV and stare blankly to my room. Just looking at the stars beaming to my eyes. Questions after questions pop to my mind. Why abang left? Why must it be him? Why now? Why this and that? Its not just about losing a person. Its just about a complete life that u have stick with all ur life just suddenly GONE. I woke up and restart the video. Ur laugh, ur smile just brings the rush of blood to my veins. I just couldn’t stop the tears. The video was u making jokes for us to laugh but I don’t understand why it actually turns to cries. Went to ur room and ur not there. Just ur smell, ur pictures and everything u left for us. I will wait for the answers cause one day im sure to know.

dreadful

2009-02-17T22:13:00.001+08:00

WELL i felt dreadful and just dreadful and LONG day going thru ever hour, minutes and seconds together. especially when night comesit the feeling of miss and everything moe stronger cause thats went we would spent MOST MAJORITY of time together just a time of privacy and everything even when he works night or day shift. dii has yet to call but i know everythingwould be absolutely fine. sometimes its when u call that things are off the wrong side.

well tmr dii is coming back i just can't wait to hear stories after stories with tons of pictures taken.

ive made a small surprise so i dont have to keep repeating everything that ive been doing.hope he like it.. i just lovethe pock-a-dots of it..

not to brag longer here..cause ive already brag abt it in the pok-a-dot.

love eu dii... come home QUICK!

after long.

2009-02-16T14:43:00.003+08:00

Well I know ive not been blogging.. Just that it happen so fast that it was hard for me to actually accept what happen. I was dumbfounded with what happen.. I had no one to turn too. No one ask how I was. I was just so happy that at that point dii was there so atleast I had a shoulder to cry on. And till today its hard for restart just not thinking what went wrong… but ive accepted the fact maybe its not the time for me to get it yet. I still redoing it next month. Further relief after emailing safwa of what happen. mak la call (safwa‘s mother) so we had a talk and she was so frustrated and all she sound so funny!

Well just a recap on Friday went out with dii for lunch at SEOL GARDEN..he just love trying making me fat.. I love the food.. The spagetti to the meat to the chicken to the seafood to the ice cream to the icey thingy..its like just name it and its there.. I love it. Ouh before that we walk around from dhiby gaut to orchard wanted to watch movie but ended up not to. Bought long sleeve from cotton on! Finally got the pink colour long sleeve ive been looking for since Christmas when I bought the mini chongsam at penang.now im just waiting for the day to wear..but I need to find a nice perfect white pants to go along..then Perfecto.. …after late lunch around 5.00+ came back home..dii was extreme tired so we parted at the station. Got to work on sat.

For sat went abang place as usual. Dii got me a news that he is leaving Singapore to genting on Monday.(which is today) Replacing his friend who cant manage to go. Monday to Wednesday..at first it was shocking for me to suck it all in at one blow but eventually got over with it. don’t have to worry much cause Encik is there I trust that ‘old man’ hehe…

For yesterday me and dii went to the cotton on shop cause the pink colour long sleeve has a small whole so had to exchange it.then we walk around to far east dii bought a belt and we bought this couple watch.. After so came back home with dii.. Stayed a while before he went for night shift..after his night shift he will be leaving off.

Today at 10.15am he departed with his team members and till now no news yet but im still waiting..

Notes :

Salam takziah kepada Keluarga Siti Nurhaliza, yang ayahanda nya telah kembali pada hari 15february 09.
Salam takziah kepada keluarga Obek dii yang telah kembali pada hari 15 February.
~Al-fateha.~